|
[04 Mar 2005|06:05am] |
im deteting this today.
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) bbodyparts
|
|
|
[20 Feb 2005|11:13pm] |
life is boring and bad sometimes.
sean's birthday is tomorrrrrooworhdsd
|
|
| imgonnachangemyljnametobodyparts |
[19 Feb 2005|02:42am] |
okay im so tired right now and i don't feel like updating but whateverrrrrrr.
yesterday i went up to poukipsee with the fat, tom farley, kevin, & keiji to see into the moat from a second story window. it was an okay ride there, we got off at an exit to look for food and we ended up in "Dykemans". weird name for a town. we pulled up to a house where they like, sold wood from there house and we all found that really weird and spooky. we kept going foward and there was like mad huge mansions. haha it was pretty weird. we made a u-turn and bathroomed it up at dunkin donuts. when we got close to the venue it got more & more project looking. it was kind of scary. we passed old school mc donalds, one scary vampire-looking cruch, old school wendys & taco bell. there were bums and gangstaz everywhere. it was wierd. we got in, the place was extremly TINY. the red death played and then my bitter end, i saw them last week and they were a lotttt better than this time. isaac showed up and i got exicted woo. shorty pretty, nick, dave, & scott showed up :). the the atirsjdsjhf train, i dont even know their name whateverjefvsjdhf, yeah they played. into the moat played & i danced for them a little & got punched in the face and now my nose is all swollen and lopsided looking. after them fassw played and they sounded SO MUCH WORSE then the last time i saw them. last time i saw them they were really good actually, now they have a new singer who i really don't like that much. i still love the guitarist though. he was playing on the speakers and it was sweet. yeah. dave drove me home and he definetly hated me for that whole time peirod. i slept on scotts shoulder the whole ride home though, it was comfy.
i woke up at 3:30 today, sean came over around four. we went to get pizza and penny al vodka(tasted AMAZING) or whatever that stuff is called. it was freezing out today, i thought it was spring on like tuesday, whatever, this weather is FUQED UP! we got back to my house and got ready really quick then my grandma drove us to baldwin to go to nicks birthday party. i had an okay time, i sat in the kitchen and i think the guest room the entire time. i finally saw sierra and peline and i missed them. saw allison and all those other people, i was looking foward to seeing. sean didnt feel good so we didn't sleep over(not like we were planning on it). we took a cab to the train around 1 & got home around 2:15.
tomorrow is nick's show! hopefully that will be good. i really wanna go eat speghetti & french fries at a diner. or fries from buger king. so hopefully i can do that tomorrow too. yup. the end.
|
|
|
[17 Feb 2005|08:56am] |
|
new layout again, but this one sucks. i didn't sleep last night. i just wrote sean a note. i'm tired. i should lay down and fall asleep under three really comfy blankets soon. this is a dumb entry, i'll probably delete it. i deleted almost all my myspace comments. i had 3015 or something so im still not done and myspace is doing that dumb matience thing. ali gave me the best valentines day card ever..aka my only valentines day card from anyone out of elementray school. its cool thought, it made me smile. this entry is REALLY horrible. into the moat and from a second story window today! im excited. blablablaldhgljsdhflshdfkldhflskhdf. peace.
|
|
|
[15 Feb 2005|08:12pm] |
anyone wanna know why i fucking hate my town so much?
there was this kid..he was kind of a loser. he played baseball and i saw him and his mom(miss mary, she works @ the hut) alll the time during spring and summer. kevin zelinski and a bunch of other dirt bags who couldnt make it past seventh grade beat the shit out of him so bad today. he's now in the hospitial internally bleeding and dying.
this town is infested with dirtbags and i hope they spend the rest of their lives in jail for attempted murder.
first chris dies.
then bernie od's
then they beat the shit out of him.
thank god im moving.
i hate everyone in this fucking town.
and if any of you reading this have enough disrespect to beat someone up for the way they look, don't fucking talk to me ever again.
|
|
|
[15 Feb 2005|05:05pm] |
|
i love the weather today.
|
|
|
[14 Feb 2005|08:02pm] |
|
okay so the weekend sucked. friday was OKAY. peline and sierra came over after school and we hung out for a little. my sister drove us to sierra's and then we got on the train to amityville. sean met us on the train and when we got to amityville we ate chinese food and went in random stores. it was fun and everything but sean was getting mad at me for being so loud and hyper. we went in a dollar store and i wanted to buy all these funny things but i didn't feel like paying for them and i didn't feel like stealing either. i found these really cool posi shorts that i was gonna buy for fancy hahaha. i shouldve bough em. whatev. nick and scott showed up and everyone was happy. we left the dollar store and chilled outside of the show. went in, tried to say hi to dan, he ignored me(asshole). then he went outside so me and sierra followed him and we got his attention. we said hi to more people and blablabla. i waited outside for isaac and when he came i ran up to him and hugged him because i missed him so much. he was my favortie once but now he's got all these girls on his dick and it's mad annoying. i was really really tired throughout the show and my friends wanted to leave so after my bitter end we left. when me and sean got home i went to sleep.
saturday was a HORRIBLE day. it started off bad and ended worse. i have some pictures from the party that i might post later if i'm not lazy. there was this one girl there that i didn't know and she was making out with everyone. people spilled soda and beer all over my computer and wouldnt clean it up. i had to sleep on the floor on broken up goldfish because no one has enough respect to clean their messes up. honestly, after this party i started to hate some people. if i ever do have another party, i am only inviting certain people. it's like impossible to be around more than 3 scene kids at once and not have any drama. ugh. whatever. people slept in my sisters room and did shit in there when i said NO ONE was allowed in there.
on sunday i woke up and started cleaning. i didn't want anyone to help me because i really didn't see the point. they couldn't clean their own shit up or listen or respect me when they were drunk so what would be the point of their help now. isaac and joani were suposed to get everyone bagels but they were gone for an hour and came back with like 5. peline, traivs, and scott left and got me one and whatevervekjhsdjfskd. everyone started leaving and it was pretty nice. scott and nick & peline stayed the longest and i like them so i don't care. peline's mom came to pick her up and sean left at like 7.
today i wasn't allowed to leave my house because things were missing from my sisters room..so i couldnt hang out with the fat which was gay.
tomorrow i have to babysit for my aunt and i'll probably just sleep the whole time but it won't be a fun day unless i hang out with the fat after!
wednesday i'm suposed to chill with dan at the mall or something. then on thursday i'm going upstate with the fat, gary, tom farley, castro, & kevin to see INTO THE MOAT & FROM A SECOND STORY WINDOW!!! :) i'm so excited!
on friday sean is going to come over after school and later that night were gonna go to nick's 18th birthday party at a very nice girl named teresa's house. we might sleep there but i'm not sure yet. saturday is nick's actual birthday and a show!
so this week should be pretty fun. i'm excited and i hope none of my plans get ruined! bye :)
|
|
|
[14 Feb 2005|12:16am] |
friday - show
saturday- terrible party
sunday - clean/ be sick
i have the worst stomatch ache ever and im gonna delete my lj one day.
|
|
|
[11 Feb 2005|02:59am] |
|
LMFAO. i love sharon osbourne. anyone who saw the show where kelly went to rehab should know what im talking about. she just cursed out some girls mom and i laughed so hard. she said the best things.
|
|
| dumb |
[10 Feb 2005|06:05pm] |
my new layout is nice
i have so much complaining to do but i have no idea how to say anything that i want to.
|
|
| fuck everyone K! |
[09 Feb 2005|07:16am] |
|
me and sean are going back out. he showed up at my house yesterday when i was sleeping..and we talked and that's that. i know some people aren't gonna be happy about us though. whatever.
i hate people. i keep saying people and not names..but in this case, i hate people. i hate violent people and people who stop themselves from being happy. i hate people who dwell on the past and people who don't just get over things and realize that there is always tomorrow. i can explain why i hate those kind of people, sorta.
i hate myspace because i go on and im like "OMG I MISS YOU LETS HANG OUT SOON!" knowing that we wont ever hang out. i decided to actually do something about it and have a party so i can see all my friends and have a good time. i posted a bulletin and i have all these people that i've never spoken to & people that i don't even know IRL IMing me & it's annoying. i specificly wrote "i miss everyone i have ever had a good time with" and if i don't know you, i don't think i've ever had a good time with you (that doesn't go for everyone though). half of the people i call my friends, i haven't hung out with outside of a show and i hate that.
i hate drama and all of the people that dwell on stupid shit that doesnt even matter. one weekend magan cheated on mike with paul, and i invited magan and paul to the party and not mike because i thought mike had a show that day. mike invited himself & wants to beat the shit out of paul AT MY HOUSE. mike calls me his best friend and i don't care if he reads this or not, but that is so fucking disrespectful. i didn't even invite him and he wants to come and fight someone. i don't mind that he wants to come and invited himself but seriously, keep your drama to yourself. keep me out of it. i hate drama and i hate the way youre dwelling on what happened with magan. you have the rest of your life ahead of you and you won't be happy until you hurt paul? retarted.
i invited kerri and travis 1 too. they hate eachother and if they can come to the party & they start getting mad and yelling at eachother, i'm going to be pissed. i wish people could just get over things and be friends. it's not that hard to say sorry or be happy.
and kerrin; if you think i hate you, why do you ever talk to me? and not confront me about it? it's pretty dumb how you can tell my boyfriend that you know i hate you and then act fake to me and talk to me like you don't know. and it's not hate, it's jealousy. but i am pretty mad about what you did to isaac because he's my friend and you told him you weren't gonna hurt him like everyone else. i know i shouldnt get involved but i don't really enjoy knowing that my friends are hurting themselves over girls and stupid "mistakes".
this entry probably makes no sense but i had to update with hope that people involved in any stupid drama will read it. i want to be friends with everyone and everyone to be friends with one another and have fun but it seems impossible because no matter what anyone does around here, there is always a problem and it's always fucking retarted.
|
|
|
[08 Feb 2005|01:23am] |
i broke up with seean and now im crying and he never wants to seeme again.
|
|
|
[07 Feb 2005|05:31am] |
|
|
|
[04 Feb 2005|09:39am] |
 i feel so gulity. sometimes, i don't know why, but sometimes, i just get really sad and frustrated and i start to hate my life and everyone in it. sometimes i think about taking out my peircings and throwing away my computer but i know id regret those choices so i don't. i get sad, and i fight with people and i say stupid things and i make myself even more unhappy. i feel guilty because i chose to fight with sean this time. he didn't do anything to me, he just said he didn't want to do something. so all of my anger and fustration just piled up and i fought with him for three days. we came far too close to breaking up. i'm sick of fighting with him and i'm sick of being uphappy and not being able to express my feelings in a proper manner. is there even a propper way to express yourself? i don't know but, i am sick of myself. i'm sick of making people i care about unhappy. i wish i knew how to just tell someone that i was unhappy with things instead of fighting about it. i wish i knew more feelings than happy, sad, & angry. i wish i could search inside myself and find out if i'm truly happy or not. i don't want to be confused or lost anymore.
|
|
|
[04 Feb 2005|08:43am] |
|
everytime it snows, the whole world should get a vacation day.
|
|
|
[03 Feb 2005|10:00am] |
|
i decided, during the spice girls era were some of the best and happiest days of my life so far.
girl power, duh.
|
|
| i cant put the past behind me. |
[02 Feb 2005|08:40am] |
|
wow. middle school was where it was at. i was just going through my box of memories and i have sooo many things from middle school. well actually, everything in that box is from middle school. i found movie tickets from 2003 when i went to see one of the Fridays with like 10 people. i have movie tickets from january of 2004 from when i saw along came polly with toni-ann and the good side of my family. i found a note from april dessimeni, who i should either call and thank(she left her number) or write a letter to(i know where she lives). that girl made my life so much easier in 7th grade. she is part of the reason that i became who i am today. same for nicole giffone and adrienne giannettino. if it werent for nicole, i would not have any badass in me. if it werent for april, i would have no faith, &if it werent for adrienne, i wouldnt have expiercenced most of the things that i got to experience with her. i read notes from my ex boyfriend, and honestly, i can't believe what i did to him. reading those notes now, i wish i knew what i was thinking back then or if i even payed attention to what he wrote to me. i found notes from sierra about how we hated kelly, notes from brittany asking if i liked jeff more than a friend and all the notes she wrote me about her weekends. i have my 7th and 8th grade IDs and all these hall passes in that box. i have notes from jackie wharry, who changed so much since i met her. i found an extremely old picture of adrienne and some random girls screen name.
now that i looked back on all that stuff, im pretty mad about how i fucked up and started hating everyone. i couldve had so many more good memories to look back on. i wonder why i even decided to start hating everyone. i really really wish i knew what i was thinking back then! everything would make so much more sense now. that box makes me realize that i need to stop taking things for granted and pay attention to what people say and what i do. i need to start thinking about how the choices i make are going to affect my furture because if im going to have to look back on the past and be dissapointed for the rest of my life, i will probably become worse than i am now. that box makes me wish i never found out what a digital camera was. when my computer dies, ill be left with nothing. i wish everyone would write me notes all the time so that i can make a new box of memories from "high school". maybe ill even go back to school next year, (i really dont know though). i dont have that many friends there but i really do miss how everything was in middle school and maybe i should give high school another chance.
its so weird looking back.
oh and i also found $45 dollars that i had saved in that box. i didnt even know it was there until i was digging through and it poped up at me. amazing.
|
|
|
[31 Jan 2005|05:45pm] |
|
ive had my septum peirced for six months :)
|
|
|
[31 Jan 2005|06:01am] |
|
sometimes i feel like i should just give up on everything.
|
|
|
[27 Jan 2005|12:32am] |
dear livejournal,
i hate people so much.
love,
vickee
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
| [ |
go |
| |
earlier |
] |
|
|
|
|
